Hello everyone, Toxic here. And guess what, it's my one year anniversary on pedia! I'm practically an old man now. Sadly, I'm not really in the mood to celebrate, quite the opposite actually...see, I'm thinking of leaving Pedia. Key word being "thinking". On one hand, I don't really want to leave, I've made some good friends, and it's helped me through some really bad times. On the other hand, I've been conflicted with the site.
I blame Nintendo. I called them to get my age changed so I could play M rated games on eshop, since I was about to buy a new 3ds for Binding of Isaac. They said they'd give me the verdict on the name change in a couple of days, and to expect an email from them then. It's been 2 months, and nothing from them. Not even a message saying it was declined. And I get it's just their job, nothing much the workers can do. But it annoyed me off enough for me to buy a ps vita instead. And once I bought it, I haven't even touched my 3ds.
Which led to my current crisis. See, when I joined pedia, it was for the free eshop codes. But I stayed because it had an awesome community for Nintendo fans, who loved their 3ds systems just as much as I did. I stayed to chat to them on sb. I stayed to tell them my (hopefully) scary stories. I stayed because I had friends, something in which, for the longest time, I felt like I hadn't had. But once I bought the vita, I kinda began to distance myself from pedia. I didn't want to go on shoutbox because I knew people would ask me to play 3ds games, and I didn't want to keep making up excuses for not being able to play. I realized I don't have too much in common with anyone now that I didn't talk about Nintendo, and I began avoiding the site. Stupid? Yes, but I started to feel like my one big connection to everyone was beginning to fade away now that I hated Nintendo. And perhaps that was the scariest thing of all for me, that a company that for so long I had admired finally lost its appeal.
There's another reason...but it's too ugly to say. Suffice to say, it's also keeping me from coming on here as often as I'd like, which means I'm coming on less and less.
So that's where I am now. I don't expect anyone to understand my ramblings, given I that still don't understand myself. I'm weird like that. Always have been, I suppose. And the point of this blog isn't to try and make you guys tell me that you want me to stay. It's because I didn't want to leave without a reason, and my reason needed to be explained. And I still don't know if I'll leave or not, and if I'll return again if I do ever leave. But I decided, just in case I do leave, and never return, I want to finish up everything I started.
So I'll be finishing the two stories I started in Toxic Manor. Then I'll decide if I should end the series, or pass it on to someone else. I also feel like I should wait until the Coldstream Facility rp is over, or at the very least figure out some way to kill off my character. And then...well, that's it really. I guess then I'll decide if I stay or not. If I don't, I'll say my goodbyes to people. If not, I'll stay here, happy at least to have finished everything else.
Anyways, that's enough rambling from me. As I said earlier, I don't expect anyone to understand, or care. And I can't guarante that the right people will even read this. But I felt like I had to say something anyways, because I consider you all my friends, even if that feeling isn't necessarily returned. So with that, thank you for reading.
I blame Nintendo. I called them to get my age changed so I could play M rated games on eshop, since I was about to buy a new 3ds for Binding of Isaac. They said they'd give me the verdict on the name change in a couple of days, and to expect an email from them then. It's been 2 months, and nothing from them. Not even a message saying it was declined. And I get it's just their job, nothing much the workers can do. But it annoyed me off enough for me to buy a ps vita instead. And once I bought it, I haven't even touched my 3ds.
Which led to my current crisis. See, when I joined pedia, it was for the free eshop codes. But I stayed because it had an awesome community for Nintendo fans, who loved their 3ds systems just as much as I did. I stayed to chat to them on sb. I stayed to tell them my (hopefully) scary stories. I stayed because I had friends, something in which, for the longest time, I felt like I hadn't had. But once I bought the vita, I kinda began to distance myself from pedia. I didn't want to go on shoutbox because I knew people would ask me to play 3ds games, and I didn't want to keep making up excuses for not being able to play. I realized I don't have too much in common with anyone now that I didn't talk about Nintendo, and I began avoiding the site. Stupid? Yes, but I started to feel like my one big connection to everyone was beginning to fade away now that I hated Nintendo. And perhaps that was the scariest thing of all for me, that a company that for so long I had admired finally lost its appeal.
There's another reason...but it's too ugly to say. Suffice to say, it's also keeping me from coming on here as often as I'd like, which means I'm coming on less and less.
So that's where I am now. I don't expect anyone to understand my ramblings, given I that still don't understand myself. I'm weird like that. Always have been, I suppose. And the point of this blog isn't to try and make you guys tell me that you want me to stay. It's because I didn't want to leave without a reason, and my reason needed to be explained. And I still don't know if I'll leave or not, and if I'll return again if I do ever leave. But I decided, just in case I do leave, and never return, I want to finish up everything I started.
So I'll be finishing the two stories I started in Toxic Manor. Then I'll decide if I should end the series, or pass it on to someone else. I also feel like I should wait until the Coldstream Facility rp is over, or at the very least figure out some way to kill off my character. And then...well, that's it really. I guess then I'll decide if I stay or not. If I don't, I'll say my goodbyes to people. If not, I'll stay here, happy at least to have finished everything else.
Anyways, that's enough rambling from me. As I said earlier, I don't expect anyone to understand, or care. And I can't guarante that the right people will even read this. But I felt like I had to say something anyways, because I consider you all my friends, even if that feeling isn't necessarily returned. So with that, thank you for reading.
