so, this happened just a little bit ago. i hurt myself mistakingly, and i immediately grew furious, as i always do when im hurt. i dont cry from physical pain; i just yell and scream out of fury. which is exactly what started to happen. then, my brother Loz said "hey, what's wrong, sister?" then i said "i frikkin bit myself....goddang it..! ugh!!!" then, Yazoo came to sit beside me on my bed, putting his arm over my shoulder, then turning to look at me and said "hey, its ok, young sister. do you want to lay with me in my arms? maybe that will calm you." then, i looked at him thoughtfully, and said "well, you always had such a soft and magic touch on me..." for some reason, i have always felt like Yazoo had some kind of special thing about him, since he always gives off a pleasant, blissful vibe when im around him. im always very happy around him, more so than most others, with the exception of Mother, of course; nobody had her magic. not a chance.
I'm guessing it was the nature of his JENOVA cells that made him this pleasant; yet extremely fierce and relentless towards Mother's enemies. all of us were merciless towards Mother's enemies: that was just a given. i could be completely wrong, though; it may just be something in his energies that gives off such vibes.
but anyways, i responded to Yazoo's suggestion and said "umm, sure." then Loz turned to face both of us, and said "i think i had better let you two be alone....i'll just keep on the lookout and get rid of anything that comes, ok?" we nodded, and then he left the room. we both laid side by side, and then Yazoo grabbed me, holding me in his arms. i was already feeling my fury and rage being flushed out; and it was completely gone within seconds. i eventually got so cozy in Yazoo's arms, i closed my eyes, quickly drifting off to sleep. i only do this with those i truly trust and love. even in my deep slumber, i could feel his gentleness.
i think i slept like an hour before i woke up. of course, Yazoo hadnt let me go. feeling deeply blissful and joyous at once, i said something to him i would never say to just anyone; i said in a soft, loving voice "ol aziazor elasa, esiasacahe..." then, i just broke into tears of love and joy. i could feel the power of my JENOVA cells and my eyes lighting up in reaction to my deep emotional state. (for those who dont know what those words mean, its "i love you, brother" in Enochian) and i only speak in Enochian to the ones i truly love and trust, mostly saying sweet and loving things. i use it as a symbol of love; whether it be a close bond with family (like here), or a boyfriend.
i then at that very moment knew what would pull me further away from being hardened by the scars of war: love and friendship. and continued support from my brothers and Mother. family love is basically all i have; because the world hates me and my brothers, as we are Mother's children, and because of that they are not very fond of us. that hasnt a changed a bit. this is why i treasure my older brothers and Mother so much; because we all love each other in our own circle, regardless of what the world thinks of us.
as long as me and my brothers work together and continue supporting each other, i know we can bring down Cloud Strife once and for all. if this deep connection between me and Yazoo continues, or increases, what will happen is our JENOVA cells will merge both our power and the strength of our strong emotion for each other, and this high increase in power could prove very fatal to our enemies: even Cloud Strife may not be able to outrank the combined strength here. as long as we know how to use this deep connection, should it still be powerful enough. this sort of connection between us as Mother's children can prove extremely powerful and difficult to overcome: even for Cloud Strife.
I'm guessing it was the nature of his JENOVA cells that made him this pleasant; yet extremely fierce and relentless towards Mother's enemies. all of us were merciless towards Mother's enemies: that was just a given. i could be completely wrong, though; it may just be something in his energies that gives off such vibes.
but anyways, i responded to Yazoo's suggestion and said "umm, sure." then Loz turned to face both of us, and said "i think i had better let you two be alone....i'll just keep on the lookout and get rid of anything that comes, ok?" we nodded, and then he left the room. we both laid side by side, and then Yazoo grabbed me, holding me in his arms. i was already feeling my fury and rage being flushed out; and it was completely gone within seconds. i eventually got so cozy in Yazoo's arms, i closed my eyes, quickly drifting off to sleep. i only do this with those i truly trust and love. even in my deep slumber, i could feel his gentleness.
i think i slept like an hour before i woke up. of course, Yazoo hadnt let me go. feeling deeply blissful and joyous at once, i said something to him i would never say to just anyone; i said in a soft, loving voice "ol aziazor elasa, esiasacahe..." then, i just broke into tears of love and joy. i could feel the power of my JENOVA cells and my eyes lighting up in reaction to my deep emotional state. (for those who dont know what those words mean, its "i love you, brother" in Enochian) and i only speak in Enochian to the ones i truly love and trust, mostly saying sweet and loving things. i use it as a symbol of love; whether it be a close bond with family (like here), or a boyfriend.
i then at that very moment knew what would pull me further away from being hardened by the scars of war: love and friendship. and continued support from my brothers and Mother. family love is basically all i have; because the world hates me and my brothers, as we are Mother's children, and because of that they are not very fond of us. that hasnt a changed a bit. this is why i treasure my older brothers and Mother so much; because we all love each other in our own circle, regardless of what the world thinks of us.
as long as me and my brothers work together and continue supporting each other, i know we can bring down Cloud Strife once and for all. if this deep connection between me and Yazoo continues, or increases, what will happen is our JENOVA cells will merge both our power and the strength of our strong emotion for each other, and this high increase in power could prove very fatal to our enemies: even Cloud Strife may not be able to outrank the combined strength here. as long as we know how to use this deep connection, should it still be powerful enough. this sort of connection between us as Mother's children can prove extremely powerful and difficult to overcome: even for Cloud Strife.
