Restless Soul
When someone very special and dearest to you is missing in your life, or you lost someone very important, you spend every waking hour of your life, desperately trying to reach that person, never letting up or taking your mind off of them...
Every day of life becomes another day of desperation, where you are hopelessly trying to find the one dearest to you, your every desire to see your special or desired one keeps you from being or even living like yourself on a regular basis; an unrelenting restlessness that quickly becomes a most unbearable pain. You try and try again, the desperation becomes so great it is now an everyday thing, where you wake up and think about the on dearest to you before anything else.
Nights where one would normally sleep peacefully become nightmares, where you toss and turn, powerless to calm your restless spirit; what quickly begins to feel like forever. The feeling is unspeakably painful, and can even precede chronic depression or thoughts of the person you perpetually want to see again, the one who means so much you would fly to the end of space just to see him/ her again if you could.
When the day for this most precious reunion finally comes, you are yourself again: you laugh, smile, and cherish every moment with him or her as if it were the last. You swear to the person that you will make certain nothing ever goes wrong anymore that would bring the nightmare back all over, and plan to live the rest of your days in peace and harmony together, no matter what comes your way, or even gets in the way things.
Then, you truly realize and have the awareness of the restless soul you really were during the most painful departure, and you see you cannot be yourself without the one dearest to you. You realize why you were hateful or even hostile and overly wary for so many years, and see how hurt you truly felt being departed from them. And at last, the sorrow finally meets its curtains and you feel free once again. You sleep peacefully, you have more positive and fulfilling days, and you finally remember how being happy truly feels.
When someone very special and dearest to you is missing in your life, or you lost someone very important, you spend every waking hour of your life, desperately trying to reach that person, never letting up or taking your mind off of them...
Every day of life becomes another day of desperation, where you are hopelessly trying to find the one dearest to you, your every desire to see your special or desired one keeps you from being or even living like yourself on a regular basis; an unrelenting restlessness that quickly becomes a most unbearable pain. You try and try again, the desperation becomes so great it is now an everyday thing, where you wake up and think about the on dearest to you before anything else.
Nights where one would normally sleep peacefully become nightmares, where you toss and turn, powerless to calm your restless spirit; what quickly begins to feel like forever. The feeling is unspeakably painful, and can even precede chronic depression or thoughts of the person you perpetually want to see again, the one who means so much you would fly to the end of space just to see him/ her again if you could.
When the day for this most precious reunion finally comes, you are yourself again: you laugh, smile, and cherish every moment with him or her as if it were the last. You swear to the person that you will make certain nothing ever goes wrong anymore that would bring the nightmare back all over, and plan to live the rest of your days in peace and harmony together, no matter what comes your way, or even gets in the way things.
Then, you truly realize and have the awareness of the restless soul you really were during the most painful departure, and you see you cannot be yourself without the one dearest to you. You realize why you were hateful or even hostile and overly wary for so many years, and see how hurt you truly felt being departed from them. And at last, the sorrow finally meets its curtains and you feel free once again. You sleep peacefully, you have more positive and fulfilling days, and you finally remember how being happy truly feels.
