Ok, so if youve talked to me somewhat and/or read my profile posts, then you know i run a 3-member group and that we are best friends. I named us Tsubukimu, for those who are wondering about the name. I have spent a number of years as the boss of this group. It all began during my senior year in high school. Now i will tell you what happened.
I was 19 at the time, with a certain habit that spread me far away from everyone else. None of them understood me, let alone even liked me. In fact, everyone just called me 'a stupid junkie with no life' and of course, that really hurt. There was one day in particular that because everyone always bullied me like that, i sneaked out of the house and rather than riding my black motorbike elsewhere, and instead of going to school, i just roamed elsewhere in my neighborhood, not really knowing why or where i was even going. I just wanted a break from the hellhole that school was for me at the time more than anything else. I didnt even care how much work i was missing. None of that mattered to me as much as my own feelings did.
I decided to stop at the park, seeing it was empty of people at the time, and i just got out my pack of cigarettes and did my thing. After i finished and tossed it, i just sat there wondering wtf i was supposed to do about all of my haters at school. No ideas came to me at all. After a couple minutes, somebody tapped me on my shoulder from behind, and i turned to face a man who looked older than me. I stood up, of course, and said "what do you want? Leave me alone!" and i started crying. Then he spoke saying "whoa, easy. You dont look so good....whats wrong?" I said "i...everyone at my school hates me and makes fun of me....and thats why im here and not there right now. And its all just because i smoke. I cant do it anymore! I never wanna go back there again!" Then he seemed to smile a bit, saying "hey....maybe all you need is your own circle, young lady." Then my tears stopped and i said "what do you mean..?" He smiled and said "you know...a group, gang....whatever. Just your own circle of people you know you can count on. How about we start one right here? With just us two to start. Well now....you wont disappoint, right? I mean, you dont wanna just quit right here, now do you?" I turned to look off in the distance, then i turned back to him, smiling and said "alright, im in! Lets do it! But uhh...which of us should be the boss?" Then he seemed to think for a bit, and said "hmm, well, based on the current--" a male voice shouted out to us nearby that interrupted him. We both turned to face a man who looked closer to my age than him, and he came running our way then said "Seth, where have you been? I looked all over for you! Wtf?!!" Then, Seth laughed and said to him "Its not important at the moment, young Lucian. We have a young woman here who may need us more than anything in the world right now. She needs some friends she can count on." Then Lucian said "ok, but is she anything like us?" Then Seth pointed to my discarded cigarette on the ground and said "that right there should be proof enough that she isnt very different from us. She needs us, Lucian. Thats the fact." Lucian followed where Seth was pointing and said "of course. So whats the deal?" Then i turned to face Lucian and said "i want to team up with you two. But, who should be the boss?"
They both walked to the other side of the park, and i saw them talking to each other, but in a soft enough volume that i couldnt hear. After a couple minutes, they returned to me. I said "so? Whats the decision?" Smiling at me, Lucian said "you will be the boss." Then, surprised, i said "huh..? Me..?" Seth laughed and said "of course! We want you to have a chance to be the toughest boss any group has ever had! We know you can top all the others out there. All you need is to find the talent within you to do it. And we know you will." Then, feeling happier than i have in a long time, i said "thank you! I.... I wont disappoint you two. We'll be the toughest there is out there, i promise! Just you see!"
And that was the very day i formed my group, Tsubukimu. I even decided to have us all dress the same: long sleeves, pants, and boots--all being black. The only difference is that i wear a black choker i made myself by hand. Ever since that very day, we have been friends who love and care for each other very dearly. I love both of these men dearly; as though they are the family i never had. That day was the dawn of a new and happier life for me, and possibly for them too. To this very day, we remain active with each other and just doing what we love and are nearly always together.
I shall never cherish anything in life more than my dear members: as they both may very well be the only reason i am alive now and even happy. I give my thanks to you, Lucian and Seth, for making life so happy for me and sticking with me from the very beginning of our formation. I love you both more than anything in the world, whether you know it or not. Thank you, my darlings; i will never forget either of you.
I was 19 at the time, with a certain habit that spread me far away from everyone else. None of them understood me, let alone even liked me. In fact, everyone just called me 'a stupid junkie with no life' and of course, that really hurt. There was one day in particular that because everyone always bullied me like that, i sneaked out of the house and rather than riding my black motorbike elsewhere, and instead of going to school, i just roamed elsewhere in my neighborhood, not really knowing why or where i was even going. I just wanted a break from the hellhole that school was for me at the time more than anything else. I didnt even care how much work i was missing. None of that mattered to me as much as my own feelings did.
I decided to stop at the park, seeing it was empty of people at the time, and i just got out my pack of cigarettes and did my thing. After i finished and tossed it, i just sat there wondering wtf i was supposed to do about all of my haters at school. No ideas came to me at all. After a couple minutes, somebody tapped me on my shoulder from behind, and i turned to face a man who looked older than me. I stood up, of course, and said "what do you want? Leave me alone!" and i started crying. Then he spoke saying "whoa, easy. You dont look so good....whats wrong?" I said "i...everyone at my school hates me and makes fun of me....and thats why im here and not there right now. And its all just because i smoke. I cant do it anymore! I never wanna go back there again!" Then he seemed to smile a bit, saying "hey....maybe all you need is your own circle, young lady." Then my tears stopped and i said "what do you mean..?" He smiled and said "you know...a group, gang....whatever. Just your own circle of people you know you can count on. How about we start one right here? With just us two to start. Well now....you wont disappoint, right? I mean, you dont wanna just quit right here, now do you?" I turned to look off in the distance, then i turned back to him, smiling and said "alright, im in! Lets do it! But uhh...which of us should be the boss?" Then he seemed to think for a bit, and said "hmm, well, based on the current--" a male voice shouted out to us nearby that interrupted him. We both turned to face a man who looked closer to my age than him, and he came running our way then said "Seth, where have you been? I looked all over for you! Wtf?!!" Then, Seth laughed and said to him "Its not important at the moment, young Lucian. We have a young woman here who may need us more than anything in the world right now. She needs some friends she can count on." Then Lucian said "ok, but is she anything like us?" Then Seth pointed to my discarded cigarette on the ground and said "that right there should be proof enough that she isnt very different from us. She needs us, Lucian. Thats the fact." Lucian followed where Seth was pointing and said "of course. So whats the deal?" Then i turned to face Lucian and said "i want to team up with you two. But, who should be the boss?"
They both walked to the other side of the park, and i saw them talking to each other, but in a soft enough volume that i couldnt hear. After a couple minutes, they returned to me. I said "so? Whats the decision?" Smiling at me, Lucian said "you will be the boss." Then, surprised, i said "huh..? Me..?" Seth laughed and said "of course! We want you to have a chance to be the toughest boss any group has ever had! We know you can top all the others out there. All you need is to find the talent within you to do it. And we know you will." Then, feeling happier than i have in a long time, i said "thank you! I.... I wont disappoint you two. We'll be the toughest there is out there, i promise! Just you see!"
And that was the very day i formed my group, Tsubukimu. I even decided to have us all dress the same: long sleeves, pants, and boots--all being black. The only difference is that i wear a black choker i made myself by hand. Ever since that very day, we have been friends who love and care for each other very dearly. I love both of these men dearly; as though they are the family i never had. That day was the dawn of a new and happier life for me, and possibly for them too. To this very day, we remain active with each other and just doing what we love and are nearly always together.
I shall never cherish anything in life more than my dear members: as they both may very well be the only reason i am alive now and even happy. I give my thanks to you, Lucian and Seth, for making life so happy for me and sticking with me from the very beginning of our formation. I love you both more than anything in the world, whether you know it or not. Thank you, my darlings; i will never forget either of you.