Kadaj
The Masochistic Hardcore Player XP
Towns Folk
Ok, being someone (long story short) who has had enough losses (such as relatives and loved ones dying) and many other very unfortunate events in life (though i try not to reveal this side of me here), i have been severely (emotionally), scarred by all of it, and have felt a burning sort of violent anger deep within myself. I have been through so much trouble in my life, its made a lasting impact on me and affected how o react to everything.
The most common problem here is controlling my anger, stress/anxiety. These are the emotions that crop up in me the most, and in nearly every case, my stress has me react to it with extreme anger. For example: recently, my sister has been coming here with her kids. And every day they are here, they both play my wii u. And every time they do, they go back to back, arguing with each other over whatever goes wrong on the game. And every time they do this, i feel my stress build up. I am always stressed when i have to let kids in my room and they have any kind of disagreement; because i never know what to do, and/or i tell them to stop and they get defiant with me, which makes my stress skyrocket in seconds, often resulting in me yelling and screaming at them out of anxiety. Like i said, my high stress/anxiety often leads to my anger. And it never goes well....
Ive decided to talk to the two members of my video game group about this, and one of them said that the best thing for me to do is distract myself to take my mind off of things. I can easily do such if i force myself to, but that doesnt always end happening. So, im going to ask you guys....do you have any suggestions for me regarding coping mechanisms that would work well to help me calm myself? And please dont say "just sit there and scream". Ive done that numerous times and it disturbs my mother every time; especially at night. Give me something legit (if you know what i mean).
The most common problem here is controlling my anger, stress/anxiety. These are the emotions that crop up in me the most, and in nearly every case, my stress has me react to it with extreme anger. For example: recently, my sister has been coming here with her kids. And every day they are here, they both play my wii u. And every time they do, they go back to back, arguing with each other over whatever goes wrong on the game. And every time they do this, i feel my stress build up. I am always stressed when i have to let kids in my room and they have any kind of disagreement; because i never know what to do, and/or i tell them to stop and they get defiant with me, which makes my stress skyrocket in seconds, often resulting in me yelling and screaming at them out of anxiety. Like i said, my high stress/anxiety often leads to my anger. And it never goes well....
Ive decided to talk to the two members of my video game group about this, and one of them said that the best thing for me to do is distract myself to take my mind off of things. I can easily do such if i force myself to, but that doesnt always end happening. So, im going to ask you guys....do you have any suggestions for me regarding coping mechanisms that would work well to help me calm myself? And please dont say "just sit there and scream". Ive done that numerous times and it disturbs my mother every time; especially at night. Give me something legit (if you know what i mean).
