Need emotional help!

[OtakuFallenAngel]

Hiya guys,

Okay so it's been a while since I posted and I didn't want my first post to be sad but I need help.

Some of you may already now that my home flooded and I did find somewhere to live but we got kicked out again and we are back in hotels. We moved to a new area because I didnt feel welcome where I was so I moved but recently I've felt quite alone and like a failure. So I watched tons of Markiplier videos and it inspired me and made me feel better but only for a brief amount of time.

I tried reaching out to him but of course no reply. Not that I'm mad I understand why he couldn't and I don't blame him but after watching a bunch of videos I wanted to get better and I really am trying to get really good at art and drama and even try a bit of comedy but today I feel dead inside. I want to scream, shout and cry because I come to realise that don't have any potential. I read Marks quotes and I want to be like him I want to come from nothing to something but I just don't know that I can.

Also, I'm 16 this year and a bunch of family were invited to come down however they all said that they don't have much money or because of other excuses, which I know is a lie.

Please help me guys, say anything to me just please help me...

P.S just in case your wondering which quotes I was drawn go it's down below.....

 

[2205]

Did you try counselling? Seeing a Professional? =/

 

[18]

I feel bad for you. Try to see a professional if you can.

I really am trying to get really good at art and drama and even try a bit of comedy but today I feel dead inside. I want to scream, shout and cry because I come to realise that don't have any potential. I read Marks quotes and I want to be like him I want to come from nothing to something but I just don't know that I can.

Keep trying and you will get good. Everyone encounters creative dead ends very often, it's a day-to-day thing. Write down/make notes of all the decent material you come up with in a day and take a look at it later to see how it can be improved.
Read a lot about the skill you want to develop, make studies of what the gold standards of your chosen skill are for you - if it's art, study the work and techniques of the artists you admire most, and so on. There is a lot of frustration and time involved but if it wasn't difficult everybody would be able to do it. You're young. Persevere. Have faith in yourself.
There are tons of people in this world who sail through life doing absolutely nothing worthwhile - if things work out for them, why shouldn't they for you when you're actively trying to find direction in life?

I can't help with your unhappiness or family matters, unfortunately. All I can do is sympathize. I hope things improve for you.

 

[OtakuFallenAngel]

I've tried

I feel bad for you. Try to see a professional if you can.

Keep trying and you will get good. Everyone encounters creative dead ends very often, it's a day-to-day thing. Write down/make notes of all the decent material you come up with in a day and take a look at it later to see how it can be improved.
Read a lot about the skill you want to develop, make studies of what the gold standards of your chosen skill are for you - if it's art, study the work and techniques of the artists you admire most, and so on. There is a lot of frustration and time involved but if it wasn't difficult everybody would be able to do it. You're young. Persevere. Have faith in yourself.
There are tons of people in this world who sail through life doing absolutely nothing worthwhile - if things work out for them, why shouldn't they for you when you're actively trying to find direction in life?

I can't help with your unhappiness or family matters, unfortunately. All I can do is sympathize. I hope things improve for you.

Thank you @SunnyWindy and @Spinnerweb

 

[25110]

You should never say "I tried", that implies that you've stopped trying, and that's never good enough to get what you want.

Best thing to do in hard times is to seriously think that you will reach your goal at the end of it, everyone has doubts but if you think about them too much then you're not doing yourself any favours.

As Spinner said, the very fact that you're yearning to make progress is sign enough that you have the potential to make something happen, and 16 is very young, my older brother's life didn't really begin until he was 24, so take a step back and realize that what happens now doesn't bare much significance when you look at the bigger picture.

 

[Artisan]

To get better at something you practice.
To be like Markiplier then write your own scripts and find your own way to make videos (about gaming/criticizing or the plot of a skit or whatever). No need to be self-critical. Have fun doing what makes yourself happy.
What is your target audience? Is it a comedy, romance, drama?
What is your tone of voice? Funny, sarcastic, casual.
How to deal with comments:
-Don't read them
-Make a good comeback if you want to
-Read and ignore
-If criticism then consider it
-If you follow a certain standard don't strictly enforce it. No one likes rules unless they're a lawyer or a company.
Be yourself . \o/

How to be upbeat: Occupy yourself with things you like to do. Optimistic self-talk. Music

 

[OtakuFallenAngel]

Thank you everyone. I will try. I've heard every story about Markimoo and it inspires me a lot. Thank you guys. If I post samples can I get constuctive criticism?

 

[Doctor Strange]

Don't worry. You're not alone. I face similar issues as you, maybe even worse and more self destructive. But for me, the thing that keeps me going is that maybe I can do great things and I can prove to myself maybe I have a purpose. What I'm saying is, set goals for youself to distract from that. And I guess you now know you're not suffering alone.

 

[25110]

There's no maybe about it.

 

[OtakuFallenAngel]

My explanation is doesn't say everything but I have been swimming everyday so my health and wellbeing has improved and I've decidecided to take art and drama classes in my free time and I'm also getting a job with help of me madre.

I think I understand now I was so blind and stupid not to see what all of you had said from the start. I'm gonna keep our guys updaTed so maybe I don't get like this again but hopefully I won't. There may even be a youtube channel on the way...?

 

[Kadaj]

Hiya guys,

Okay so it's been a while since I posted and I didn't want my first post to be sad but I need help.

Some of you may already now that my home flooded and I did find somewhere to live but we got kicked out again and we are back in hotels. We moved to a new area because I didnt feel welcome where I was so I moved but recently I've felt quite alone and like a failure. So I watched tons of Markiplier videos and it inspired me and made me feel better but only for a brief amount of time.

I tried reaching out to him but of course no reply. Not that I'm mad I understand why he couldn't and I don't blame him but after watching a bunch of videos I wanted to get better and I really am trying to get really good at art and drama and even try a bit of comedy but today I feel dead inside. I want to scream, shout and cry because I come to realise that don't have any potential. I read Marks quotes and I want to be like him I want to come from nothing to something but I just don't know that I can.

Also, I'm 16 this year and a bunch of family were invited to come down however they all said that they don't have much money or because of other excuses, which I know is a lie.

Please help me guys, say anything to me just please help me...

P.S just in case your wondering which quotes I was drawn go it's down below.....
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i understand what youre going through, i used to be much like what youre saying here. however, this was a case that may have been on a rather smaller scale, my home was not destroyed but i had such a struggle i wound up with some very unhealthy habits which i relied upon for recreational/pleasure means (i wont go any further than this, just for the better). like you, i felt i had nothing else left and all kinds of bad things. i managed to get up and start doing something about it all, which has put me at a much higher level of overall stability and to keep it short, i am much more settled and open than i was in the time i described above (dont ask for details, its a subject of personal, i am only writing this to avoid too many loopholes, not to give every little detail). i helped myself and snapped myself into line on my own, and given enough time and effort, im literally the exact opposite of who i was then.

like some others say above, theres nothing wrong with getting professional help. aside from that, what i was trying to tell you above is that anyone can change and go from "rags to riches" if you get what i mean (not literally!), provided the necessary moves and actions are made to encourage such. i know its not easy; but regardless of your situation, do what you can and you must, and above all else and most importantly try not to let it all get to you too much. if your overall situation is too critical, then it may be best to call a professional. either way, just do the best you can.

 

[Leaandro15]

You're too young to be sad and be facing too much problems you don't have to be like Marciplier you just have to be yourself don't let other things influence you be the person you are and express yourself don't go trying to be someone you aren't I used to want to be like a person from Vines because he was cool and smart and funny ,but I stopped when I realized I wasn't going to be like him because I'm myself hopefully you realize how important you are and don't let anyone bring you down try to become successful and don't listen to your family they bring you down ignore them I remember when people would bring me down too because they used to tell I was ugly ,but I didn't listen too then I simply just went along with it.

 

[Kadaj]

You're too young to be sad and be facing too much problems you don't have to be like Marciplier you just have to be yourself don't let other things influence you be the person you are and express yourself don't go trying to be someone you aren't I used to want to be like a person from Vines because he was cool and smart and funny ,but I stopped when I realized I wasn't going to be like him because I'm myself hopefully you realize how important you are and don't let anyone bring you down try to become successful and don't listen to your family they bring you down ignore them I remember when people would bring me down too because they used to tell I was ugly ,but I didn't listen too then I simply just went along with it.

Yes i had the same problem with so-called 'family', the rejected me just because i wasnt who they wanted me to be, didn't turn out how they liked, the list goes...

I ended deciding you know what, goodbye you fakes, i dont like the way you treat me, im leaving you forever. And just decided its time to move on and went my own way, just being me whether someone likes it or not. If they don't like it, theyre not worhy of my time or feelings in any way. Its their problem if they don't like it, not mine.

I wound up making my own rules/ personal system and choosing people myself if i decided theyre worth it to me, and this has actually been extremely healing for me in many ways even if it might sound wrong or cruel to someone.

My point is, dont waste time trying to change people or yourself just because someone thinks you're not good enough or whatever else is the fool's problem; go your own way, make your own rules, and do whats best for you, even if it makes someone else mad, just do whats best for yourself in this case. You can't worry yourself with pleasing everyone; find your own path and find what's truly right for you. Only then can you truly feel happy and be free.

 

[Leaandro15]

Yes i had the same problem with so-called 'family', the rejected me just because i wasnt who they wanted me to be, didn't turn out how they liked, the list goes...

I ended deciding you know what, goodbye you fakes, i dont like the way you treat me, im leaving you forever. And just decided its time to move on and went my own way, just being me whether someone likes it or not. If they don't like it, theyre not worhy of my time or feelings in any way. Its their problem if they don't like it, not mine.

I wound up making my own rules/ personal system and choosing people myself if i decided theyre worth it to me, and this has actually been extremely healing for me in many ways even if it might sound wrong or cruel to someone.

My point is, dont waste time trying to change people or yourself just because someone thinks you're not good enough or whatever else is the fool's problem; go your own way, make your own rules, and do whats best for you, even if it makes someone else mad, just do whats best for yourself in this case. You can't worry yourself with pleasing everyone; find your own path and find what's truly right for you. Only then can you truly feel happy and be free.

Yea my moms family used to bring me down a lot and I used to cry because my aunts used to tell me I was horrible and I wasn't that attractive and people just laughed although my mom always told me to ignore them and never give up of the person who I wanted to be ,but I stand up for myself now and if they were to tell me something I would cuss them out sorry to be mean ,but they're not and it's the only way to shut them up.

 

[Kadaj]

Yea my moms family used to bring me down a lot and I used to cry because my aunts used to tell me I was horrible and I wasn't that attractive and people just laughed although my mom always told me to ignore them and never give up of the person who I wanted to be ,but I stand up for myself now and if they were to tell me something I would cuss them out sorry to be mean ,but they're not and it's the only way to shut them up.

Don't sweat it, sometimes the only way for people to get the message is to be hard. If that were me though I wouldn't even see her as a true mother at all. Just saying this and that, talking big and acting small... I dont fall into that game anymore, ive seen it way too many times so i usually just disregard people like this. I know why so many people run into that problem though, it is no joke to say its virtually impossible to avoid because people take things too lightly (not all but certainly many), and then the person on the receiving end suffers from it because the other one involved wont do something when you really need their help.

I think my description here is accurate enough to be honest, i personally feel this is a very common so-called 'family' problem, sad but true