My apologies for disappearing almost a week. I'm presently participating in a contest, (seems to be going nowhere despite all I'm putting into it, as of this posting.) so I'll admit it was irresponsible ticking off hosts and disappearing shortly after.
Horrible as this sounds as I type this, I had a good excuse.
See... A relative of a friend of mine had passed on that first day I was gone. I'd only just heard about it myself so up until then I was just my ordinary loserish self. We all know how difficult it is when someone goes ahead of their time, and at such a young age, (he was about 33 or so. It was some kinda cardiac arrest.) but that wasn't all of it.
The real jarring part of this was a conversation a week before it happened. He spoke a lot about death that week, not that we could've possibly seen this coming. He had gotten a bit spiritual, and he was asking all these sorts of hypotheticals.
One of those is still haunting me; "What would you do in life if I could no longer be a part of it?"
I couldn't even answer that when he asked it. Now I have to.
Yeah... I think my activity is going down a little while I figure this out, but I'm staying. I'll be back on after a bit of meditation on this, among other people, putting myself back together.
Horrible as this sounds as I type this, I had a good excuse.
See... A relative of a friend of mine had passed on that first day I was gone. I'd only just heard about it myself so up until then I was just my ordinary loserish self. We all know how difficult it is when someone goes ahead of their time, and at such a young age, (he was about 33 or so. It was some kinda cardiac arrest.) but that wasn't all of it.
The real jarring part of this was a conversation a week before it happened. He spoke a lot about death that week, not that we could've possibly seen this coming. He had gotten a bit spiritual, and he was asking all these sorts of hypotheticals.
One of those is still haunting me; "What would you do in life if I could no longer be a part of it?"
I couldn't even answer that when he asked it. Now I have to.
Yeah... I think my activity is going down a little while I figure this out, but I'm staying. I'll be back on after a bit of meditation on this, among other people, putting myself back together.
