Why I started playing guitar

So I'm currently 6 months into playing guitar.Since I was a little kid I was always Intrigued by the guitar,it just seemed so cool,guitar hero just extended the feeling of coolness(I wasnt very good as a kid I am now but I sold all that junk)It introduced me to some new music,and automatically those were the types of songs I liked,Rock just spoke to me.I didn't grow up in the best of cases so the thought never crossed me to ask for a guitar.And later in life I was just never open about the type of music I liked,In a school where the most listened to thing was rap I was kind of ashamed about the music I liked,I felt like the weird one,the outlier,Even now My friends are listening to Boy Pablo and whoever else,meanwhile I'm listening to metallica,megadeth,slipknot,soad,you name it.I only became comfortable with the type I listen only since year.I'd walk home everyday sometimes on the 1 hour walk to my house and I would just see a nice white stratocaster in a pawn shop,And I just thought more and more about how much I wanted it.My musical journey started at more Alternative levels and slowly got more heavy and more heavy as the time went.In which this story takes a dark turn,I was in a really dark place last year,existentialism is all that plagued my mind,and so one day I woke up and told my self "In the grand scheme of things we all dont matter,unless we make our selves matter" I said to myself "I wanna make music that hopefully others can enjoy and relate to" And from that point on Ik what I wanted to do,I told my best friend my dream and went straight to writing songs picking out the pieces of my mind too toxic for anythin else.My friends on the other hand didn't like the songs I was writing,as they came from feelings of pain and anger.They left and I realized I was alone in my musical endeavors.Then I met my friend Steve he was sort of a mentor for a while till he started his own band.And since then I've just been self taught for the last couple of months.My ultimate goal in life is to make music,and to be on par with my biggest inspiration Kirk Hammett from Metallica,Hope you enjoyed the story.